Hospital

Today, I went to the Shiikokutyuuou hospital for my upset stomach. As my main certain symptom, no appetite and having burps before and after meals. When I sat down in the waiting room in the department of digestive organs, I was glad to see few patients, it was not crowded. But after all, I waited 4hours, additionally I have to take the test in another day.
I’d really felt the breakdown of medical care in my hometown. There are a lot of small clinics in my hometown, and they are never crowded. Acｔually, polarized phenomenon was brewing here in medical.
Because, recently, people tend to go to large-scale general hospitals like civic or public hospitals and university hospitals, capable of dealing with various illnesses in fields ranging from pediatrics to neurosurgery, to require high quality of health care, and then, unleash a crowding in only latge hospitals. I am writing to find out what kind of services and information to ease a crowing in large-scale hospitals.
The first is that enhance the partnerships between a large hospital and small clinics. The Ministry of Health and Welfare has advised us to have a family doctor. That system is that family doc can immediately introduces his patient to large hospitals, when he is getting worse. I think patients would feel secure by establishing the safety system. Now, in the field of medical care, it has been advancing through specialization and subdivision. We couldn’t prevent people require a long life and QOL.. So, clinics will segregate each other by improving their expertise, for example, in psychiatric circles, for depression or borderline personality disorder or children etc.
The second is that improve the efficiency of hospital, in medical examination. Now some reformations, like appointment system and sharing patient’s information with electronic medical charts, have already begun. The hospitals are also expected to balance competing goals for reducing medical expenses and better medical care.
We, Japanese, tend to think, how to live, so we always wish better lives. And doctors also try to assure the best possible medical care without any thought of national budget. In Japan , just join the health insurance system and we can get the finest medical care to pay 1/3 of the cost of the totall cost. But, Japan is aging at a rapid pace, and we will not expect dramatic growth. Unless halting rising medical costs, we will not retain our current structures. I think that the system, medical choice, will be introduced to meet the needs of the patients. Medical choice might extend to various fields, like check and treatment and medicine and even treatment term or refusal.
If the government is offering guaranteed high quality healthcare, we also have to expect an enormous of costs. So, the government tries to promote the idea like palliative care and dignified death, and then, people will start to think about their death and their life.
It's not easy to go this way. I couldn't stop to feel less secure that future could buy our lives by money would come soon.

Well, I got a lot of drugs in the hospital.
So, I asked a doctor, “ If my stomach improves, can I stop to take drugs?” and then, she said ”No, you have to stay on these drugs for 1 month ”
I was a bit depressed. Because I don’t like to take drugs, even I’m worse. I’ve been cured myself from almost disease by my immunity.
My mother also doesn’t like to take drugs, so it was rare for us to go to hospitals, even I developed a fever. Because of this, I belive I could improve my immunity.
The clean-loving Japanese have surrounded themselves with drugs and antibacterial goods, so Japanese lose chances to improve their immunities.
I want everyone to think more serious about drugs influences to our bodies.

Now, I try to eat a lot of carbohydrates and vitamins through breads and fruits, because it is easy to eat.
I know, I should take more proteins.
Today I cooked a special soup, enhance collagen with wing tips.
Lentils contein 60% carbo and 26%protein and 1% fat!
They don't have rich protein, but it is easy to digest.

Lentils soup rich collagen
for 4 people and 150kcal per person
lentils 50g
wing tip 4
shallot 2
carrot 1/4
green pepper 1
garlic 1piece
pepper and salt

1 mince every vegetables
2 saute every vegetables and wing tips with olive oil until onion turn light brown.
3 Put some water and boil for about 20 mini, as removing fat
4 Add boiled lentils, and salt and pepper to taste, and simmer until they are tender.

Upset stomach

I have been suffering from headaches and vomiting. I might get a stomach upset. I’m going to go to hospital after a field day, in Sep 28 or 29. I have substitute holidays. So, that's all for today.

Highway

Today, I went to Matsuyama to see a friend.
The highway was so crowded, because now, in only weekend, the highway tolls with a uniform driving charge of 1000Yen, except city area.
I found a lot of cars from other prefectures in the high way parking.
Yesterday, Yukio Hatoyama, be elected prime minister on Sep 16, committed to pursuing a far ambitious goal to slash greenhouse gas emissions.
Speaking at the Asahi World Environment Forum 2009, which opened the same day in Tokyo, he said his administration would aim for an emissions cut of 25 % from 1990 levels by 2020.
It constitutes a contradiction with the manifesto of his party, Democratic party. The highway become free is concluded in the DP’s manifesto.
Even now, there are a lot of increases in traffic in everyhighway. When free highway happens, CO2 emissions will increase very much.
I feel stirring concern, Japanese CO2 emission is only 4.5% of the total, and 41 % of the total number of CO2 are US and China. He shows that Japan will take initiative to achieve the target, to the world. I’m wondering if he has such a strong initiative.
Japan is said that is advanced on eco friendly technologies. If we could develop a sustainable system and spread our environmental technologies, we would buck up Japan’s value.
Any way, I shouldn’t worry too much, and I just expect Japan’s fine progress.

By the way, I found a fun store at the highway parking.
It’s a fruits market, really Ehime. I tried to put early oranges in a small bag for 200Yen.
I felt coming of autumn!

Stamp

Today I had a stressful stuff. After coming home, I enjoyed "handmade."

Today's theme is a stamp.

Have you ever made a stamp from an eraser in your school days?

In my elementary school, when we were taught how to use a carving knife, everyone got to be crazy about making stamps from erasers.

Recently, making stamps seem to become hot topic in Japan.

Eraser stamp

materials

carving knif

eraser

ink pad

acrylic color

ink brush

how to make

1 painting on the eraser

2 carve eraser along the line

3 ink in and stamp

4 if you use acrylic color, you can stamp even fablic.

Eraser stamp is made from a few materials, and make easily!

You would like to challenge more funny one!

What really surprised me

Today, there was a debriefing meeting of my friend wedding, an overseas wedding, combines with the honeymoon.

I was very much caught off guard by her.

She is one of teacher friend's group.

Last March, when I checked a news paper about teacher's personnel transfer, I found her name on the retired list. Though we often meeted to talk almost every month, I'd never heard whether she worried to quit the job, or not.

I couldn't get a hold of her, so I called all my friends, but nobody knew it.

After a while, I got an e-mail from her. They had words like " I'm going to get married one person, having a relationship with me. I'll go to Okayama" .

I nearly had a stroke.

In the meeting, we enjoyed listening all kinds of stories about them. Marrige person's opinion maybe of some help for me. I felt very encouraged from them. And, I just called to one single friend sitting in front of me," We shold do our best, souldn't we?" Then, because she answered, "No, I'm not enough. I got married".

I've nearly had a stroke again.

She just got married last week.

I'd believed that we had said whatever we did. I realized, everyone doesn't say whatever is on their mind and goes out with someone.

I've been thinking that I have to marry for a long time. But, until recently, I wasn't true interested in marriage.

It's a fact that I rarely met someone I really like. I'd been just thought someone understand me. Topics of my interest are economic and politics and environment, eco and health and food.

Maybe, they are not girlish. I might look serious and cool.

Usually, people seem to tell each other about what happened that day at home.

But in my family, we din't tell about such a things, I think it was not my parent's favorite topic. And now, if I tell about my work, it's not difficult but enourmous amounts of work and hectic and stressfull days , my mother will worry too much. So, now, we enjoy talking about current news.

Oh, I am in a crisis!

I should feel pressed more.

Luckily, Happiness are still continuing in my group.

My friends offer to introduce a new love to me, in the meantime, I should go for it.

I might find someone understand me.

Gardening

I've been enjoying "gardening" since my childfood.
I've left home for a long time, and I lost a lot of plants and flowers, but my garden is still planted with a variety of flowers and plants.
Early September is the month for planting spring-flowering bulbs.
Basically, they grow easily, just only water and furtilize.
If they don't bloom in spring, the problem could be overcrowding.
Today, I focused on transplanting them.

Taking care of plants, just that alone is enough for me. It's my pleasure. Let's join me to enjoy gardening!
If you grow plants, you can really the strength of nature.

I have a lot of Daffodils and Tulips of different kinds that include rare species.
And, Leucojum aestivum and Cyclamen persicum and Zephyranthes and Ornithogalum dubium and Sorrel and etc.

Almost people would be content to just watch beautiful things.
In my case, while looking at plants, which is enough to purify my mind and feel comforted.
And, touching the plants, I feel my sensitivity will unfold.

This year, Fortunately, a Cyclamen servived last winter. Though I buy some Cyclamen every year, it's the first experience for me.
In addition, I've found some small bulbs of Cyclamen. Each bulb sprouts a few leaf.
It's also my first experience!
They give hope to me!

5 days holidays

Today, 5 days holidays started!
I have a lot of homework, because I had been tackling worries about students during last few weeks. Any way, I have to do those without complaining.
When I look back at the past several years, I've felt difficulties managing students year and year.

I feel children having some kind of difficulties, like ADHD or lack of social skills or psychological fear, are increasing.
In the other hand, there are so many parents who are earnest for an education for their children. change in society
I think, it is cocktail of several reasons, change in society, like a gap of society and diversification of individual values.
People in matured countries are searching for an enjoyable, easy life.
Surely, we got it, but in the result , we are forced to be hectic lifestiles.
Now, we also are requesting by customers, parents.
Since some time or other, we just attend to their needs. A wide variety of students are in public school. It creates differences of opinions among them.
I realized, I've been exhausted by trying to respond to the request as completely as possible.
I should make a virtue of necessity.

Well, I've complained again!
Generaly, people enjoy making their blog as a communication tool or a place showing themselves.
But, in my case I just write very personal thing, just telling daily life or my thought.
As blogging, I can see myself.
I've believed that wrinting has good effect as a therapy, especially for people pour out their worriesin front of others, like me.
Well, I guess that nurcing plants or painting or making something have also good effect on people relaxed. They are a sense of success in works.

In the end, "pain is forgotten where gain follows."
I don't like such a thinking, want to put something back. But I should change my mind, for reducing my stresses.

Worries

I got depressed today.
My cheif someteimes advise me about management of children. That is not really a bad thing. However, she said it in front of a lot of my colleagues, especially the principal.
When I hear her advices, I come down off a high, even I really know some children's bad conduct. I get to suffer serious guilt trips, like I feel I am denied.
Maybe, parents nurseing difficult child always feel like me!

Maybe, even for children I couldn't keep a suitable distance with children.
I should leave from children, and see them objectively, and advise them acting on their own initiative.

Well, moreover, I have an another problem.
Though I wish to settle down at least, I'm prone to problems.

Diary

Every weekends, I give children kepping a dairy as a homework.
Last week's topic was "the chores".

(A boy's diary)
I do one thing for helping my family.
It's that bringing a newspaper.
I do it everyday.
When I did it, I got 10Yen from my father.
I'm really happy it.

You might ask me, "And then?"
I just couldn't help smiling with pleasure.
But I think, his diary offers a glimpse into a lot of things, about his family, his parent's sense of values and understanding of his personality.
He is the first boy of 3 siblings. He has 2 yongersisters.
Both his parents are working all day.
He is earnest and well-organaized and concentrates his favorite things and has his pace.
Plobably, his parents try to teach forming habit or money sense to him.
Surely, I feel he is influenced by it.

Ring bells for me.
I grow up just like my mother, loving sowing and knitting and cooking and plants.
My friends were also really like me.
Only school was what it's an another world for me.

I believe the human being is formed by experiences, including the enviornment and social position.
If Children have the ability which read other's mind, they would live up to their parent's expectation. If parents often read books, their children would be interested in, and get to like books. If you hope something to your children, you just should do it in front of them.
I think, the most important thing is to have faith in yourself.

Happening again

It was cloudy today, so I could feel good, even 3 PE classes and after school field tarainig.
Today, there was a happening in school. Around 6:30pm, a colleague found a fallen colleague at her classroom, and she was transported by ambulance to SHIKOKUTYUUOU hospital. Well, she wasn't as seriously ill as we thought.
It was an exhaustion. Hospital wasn't so crowded, I saw 3 docters and 2 nurses. We had to wait over 1 hour before treatment. During waiting, I saw some patients who were receiving intravenous fluids.
Maybe, they were not severe patients in the eyes of a docter. But it was a big problem for them.
I also know docter's severe work environment and dificulties. They were required a lot of things such as night duty and good judgment and responsibility. They also need feelings of comfort.
I think the cause which is distructive to the doctor-patient relationship comes from such matters.
After all, I feel again it is important to try to help each other understand.

Well, there was a happy occasion. It was that I ran across an Engllish classmate at the hospital.

Ps. In the end, she needed to be admitted to hospital for a while.
She is one of my close colleagues. I really hope her recover.

Momordica charantia

Tonight, I cooked "Okinawan gōyā chanpuru stirfry", fried pork and toufu and egg. It's Momordica charantia, usually we say "Bitter melon". Momordica charantia is a tropical and subtropical vine of the family Cucurbitacease, widely grown for edible fruit, which is among the most bitter of all vegetables. It contains rich Vitetnamine C and momordicim. Momordicim that is said to be effective in removing fatigue and have a stomachic effect.

It produces a lot of fruits with rapidity. We eat unripen fruits.

Well, we grow a lot of vegitables in school, for Sience education and promoting love for nature and ecological education.

Now, we make a big green curtain by Momordica charantia. It block sunlight and must be cooled our class rooms. But, in fact, I feel a bit humid by it.

Today, I got a Momordica for dinner.

But, my dinner time was too late, and it contains rich nutritions. Maybe, it's so effective that I would put on weight.

Any way, I need it. Tomorrow would be a hard day. I have 3 FE classes of a day, and I have to look after training for track &field after school, besides, I have a meeting at night.

Special weekend

Even today, I stayed in almost day.

But, today, I could work a lot , planing of classes or checking an enormous amount of prints and tests.

Tomorrow is school starting! I understand the feelings of school truants.

I've noticed one thing from this weekend. Usually I go to school to work even in weekend. But In this weekend, I've done without going to school. In the furture, I' d like to do.

Well, I decided to make a cake for school. I went to JUSCO to buy ingredients in the evening.

JUSCO was so crowded as I thought. Usually, I drop at there around 8 or 8pm, and see few people. I was a bit glad, because I've been supporting EON's ECO activities.

Cranberry and whitechocolatecake

5×5×4　cup 10 　 (18×18㎝　pan)

butter 90ｇ　(180)

gra sugar 75ｇ　(150)

milk 15ml　(30)

whitechoco 30ｇ　(60)

egg 2　　(4)

flour 100ｇ　(200)

p-powder 2g (4)

lemon 15ｍｌ　(30)

cranberry 80ｇ　(160)

１　In a bowl combine butter and sugar and whisk

2 Put melt whitechoco and milk to 1

3 Combine egg

4 Add to flour mixture.

5 Add to lemon and cranberry mixture.

Stir just until moistened.

6 filing pan

7 Preheat oven to 160 ℃　and bake for 25 mini.

It burnt a bit, with not too sweet taste, and it's like a financier.

In next week I have to attend 4 meetings at night, almost everyday! It's awful.

I'll be looking forward to 5 days holidays.

Saturday morning

Saturday morning is my most favorite time.
I get up around 6:30 am, usually 5:30, and I make a breakfast as thinking about nutritional balance and color. Today, there are a organic hot cake made from okara and pear of 1/3 and a yogurt and a cup of cafe au lait. You might ask me, why are you thinking of color? I believe that color is a very useful item to stimulus to us. Good for our feeling and stimulus our appetites.
And I enjoy reading a newspaper as having breakfast, over 1 hour.

The other reason of what I love Saturday morning is that I don't need make up. Usually, I'm light makeup. Even it, I feel some worked for me. When I'm no make up, I can be natural and experience my body relaxing.
My mother and younger sister often advise me to buy more good and much clothes. Sometimes I feel it annoying. Having a lot of clothes is tough for me, because I get to have to think more about my appearance and manage those. I don't attach much importance to appearance.
But recentlly, I've realized, so much people attach much importance to appearance, through discussing at English conversation school, for getting job or good impression and etc.
According to classmate's thought, a lot of people compare themselves to what they see on TV or magagines. I was surprised that they might be helpful for chosing my fashion, but they weren't real life for me.

We say, " Can't be judged by their appearances", but on other front, " Can judge someone based on looks only".

Many Japanese make a lot of efforts to improve their appearance, especially among young generation.
Actually, a talk about a fasion might take a role as making a relationship with friends and establishing theirselves. And they might just enjoy it. More than anything, if you look good, you might feel good by itself. Being improved cosmetically might affect to more wide areas as I thought.
I know, it depends on sense of values. So, I don't need to care about my appearance so much. But, in a sense, If I live in such an image-conscious society, I should be more concerned about my appearance.

9.11

Today was the eight anniversary of the US terror attacks.
I've remembered "2001.9.11" in Besshi, it's located in mountain area. An ALT teacher who lived nearby came to my appartment for getting more informations. She was just as scared. For a while, we are talking about it. In fact, I'd felt a slight strangeness like another world.
But, it was a real life for her, because, at that time, her aunt lived in New York.

Now, in what kind of situations are New York?
From what I heard, deep sorrows still exist.
I think that "9.11" will seriously continue to affect people's lives, for a while.
" 9.11" was originally formed by invasion of Iraq. I whish they cut the cahin of hatred.

People say, "Feelings of forgiveness are important. Hatred only brings about hatred."

Obama presents "dialogue" as a foreign policy.
He shows his attitude to Middle East, he would try to have a dialogue and understand Mid East and Islamism.
I agree with his policy, I belive it is helpful to solve the issues through dialogue and negotiation.

We know, the opposite meaning word of" love" is "uninterest".
So, I believe that the terrorist would not attack to US if he doesn't change his policy.

It's inevitable we have defferent sense of values, because we have been brought up with different environments, languages, and customs. So, US should try to understand their point of views, and express your different sense of values and ask for understanding from them with different cultural backgrounds and customs.

I'm convinced it would come down to a difference in values.

Well, I'm wondering why US attach importance to the international contributions.
I just hope people around me would be happy.

I guess it comes from their religion or education, and they who are standing a high social position have more great ideals.
Next time, I want to think about it.

Turbulent days

Now, I face trouble in school, with one of my student's mother.
I have been given priority to my job over my private life. So, when I loose confidence about it, I'm wondering what I should rely on.
I'm going to die!
In such a turbulent day's, Even the severe principal and subprincipal advise me as to handle of the clisis, very kindly.
I've really realized that it is too dificult to understand my thought.
I hope it'll go good direction.

An unexpected present

We are still wearing a mask. I'm getting to used to it.

I'm afraid of falling into the habit.

Well, today, I got an unexpected present from a colleague.

Recently, I had been in the blues. And, It makes me happy.

There are some people who keep company on a give and take principle.

When we do something for others, we might expect some kind of returns, like good impression or

making good relationship.

So, unexpected return makes us happier than expected one. Joy will be dobbled.

Well, I would like to give unexpected gifts to loving people.